whenever i put my fingers to work ,

to equate my thoughts

into words ,

i always find it a little

relieving

like a release :

catharsis .

so having a blog

is really like a public journal .

which no doubt , gets a little boring sometime .

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when you're in the face of so much grief ,

you learn to deal with it ,

but when it elongates over a long period of time ,

there no longer, is an urgency to search a solution for the problem ,

instead , you yearn for a solution

for yourself .

i feel the repercussions are destructive . damaging and brutal .

because you trusted ,

cared ,

loved ,

you hurt .

so what makes you

when you lose all reasons of grief -

when you don't trust ,

care ,

love ?

how do you become a doctor then ?

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