i am someone who makes a lot of mistakes

and often times , i realize them too late

when i see the consequence

unfolding ,

hopelessly .

as i think more about it ,

i think about ways of improvements ,

and i think hard .

so much i want to embody the perfect human -

the perfect student , the golden daughter ,

the supportive sister -

but as i make more mistakes

against my ideals of a person ,

i feel so

overwhelmingly disappointed ,

that i've disappointed myself ,

but more importantly

my parents ,

who i wish the world

and universe

for .

the attempts don't matter

if the results don't

amount .

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